I am of 26, female. Youngest daughter in our family.

In my childhood one of tutors has tried to be sexual with me, I was only 5 or 6. I didn’t even know what he is trying to do. He used to ask me sit in his lap and he used to unzip his pants during that time. He asked me several times to close my eyes and hold his organs. I don’t remember exactly, how have I told this all to my mother and they just fired him.

Again when I was 12, someone tried to put his hand in my shirt from the top of my neck while I was sleeping.

One of uncles used to touch me with bad intentions when I was 12.

At the age of 14, one of my female cousins wanted to have a kind of sexual terms with her that I never understood!

As a girl we face a-lot of difficulties while moving in the society. People (males) will touch you unnecessarily for no reason for just their pleasure.

My father stares me whenever I am asleep. He will touch my fingers when I give him a cup of tea or a glass of water. I avoid giving things in his hands.

I am engaged but I cannot tell this to my fiancé. I don’t know what you people will think while reading this. But, I am really disturbed. I don’t know to whom should I talk to? I don’t know is this a sexual abuse? I don’t know how can we live in a home where we face such type of issues? I am very sensitive. People make fun of mine. Why I am too curious about young girls even of babies. I see myself as I am psycho. I don’t know what to do. Home is the place where you feel safe. Father is a hero for a daughter. But for me it’s unbelievable.

Please let me know if I am thinking wrong. If you can give me any suggestions I am in hell mental illness.

Thank you for taking time for reading me!